Hyperactive Ghost

Moves to Make: Dadi Freyr at Eastside Bowl

For the final episode of season 1, Beep discusses the Dadi Freyr show at Eastside Bowl on March 4, 2024. Showing up feeling weird and vulnerable, she knew she would have to make very different choices going forward if she was going to change her life--but why? Was it really just the loss of a relationship....or was that relationship part of decades of a crappy pattern that needed to end? It's the latter, but.....this leads us into season 2 of Hyperactive Ghost, where attending a 3-day music festival would plunger her into a dark memory of the worst relationship she ever had. 

Shaky BeepBoop: Latin Freestyle and How We Wanted Immediacy

Length: ~46 minutesThis adaptation of my "When I Hear Music: Latin Freestyle Heavy Hitters at Amway Arena," alternatively titled "We Wanted Immediacy," I start with a little more information about how my EMDR sessions lead to reviving my love of Latin Freestyle.It reminded me that I can't just throw my difficult life away because there is good music to be had, and I have to remember what deserves to thrive within me by remembering the music.And, to some degree, I understand what I'm revealing is that this whole project began as part of my journey toward writing about the parts of my life worth living for so that I could write about why I didn't want to live at one time.This music is made for immediacy and it's a reason to remember what my hometown gave me as I record what it took.Image is me at my 9th grade prom. Don't laugh, I was CUTE.The Shaky BeepBoop playlist is on Youtube here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUQEmXcu6q8&list=PLyNg8ZfB2cckO1EH61a6vOVXKY7B-AsfX Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

Take the Stage for 5: Two-Door Cinema Club in Orlando in 2011 and Nashville in 2024.

Length: ~46 minutesI saw Two-Door Cinema Club in The Social in Orlando in 2011 and at Brooklyn Bowl Nashville in 2024, inspiring a conversation about the upgrade in quality with the problematic element of playing a venue too small for your success and a chaotic audience. The result is an entry into a conversation about the very real issues around parking and safety when an audience arrives chaotic and disrespectful to each other. Two-Door Cinema Club is an excellent band with savvy performers, but sometimes, you just need to rethink your show strategy when you hit that level of success. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

Front Line Assembly, Gary Numan, and Ministry at Hard Rock Live Orlando

Length 1:07. It's chatty, so you can throw it on and work or drive!I saw Front Line Assembly, Gary Numan, and Ministry at Hard Rock Live Orlando in March of 2024, during a point where my exhaustion was beginning to feel too heavy. As a lecturer at a public university in Florida, I knew there would be some tones about my state's politics at the time, but was surprised when Jourgensen took a minute to stir up a pit by giving us a "Fck Desantis" moment that I so desperately needed.What followed was a lil trip through my memories around the issue of my home state, how we should have known how bad it was in my hometown prior to my generation's presence here, and what it would all amount to.But....I also feel sad for the younger version of me who had to learn to do everything alone. I'm still doing that, but I'm trying to change it. I'm grateful for musicians, and I will always remember the tiny mosh pit I created in A/V class in high school. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

I Was His Cosmic Girl

I Was His Cosmic Girl: My Grief Was Hiding Behind the 30th Anniversary of Jamiroquai's First Album.Length: 56 minutesI published this in 2024, not long after the 30th anniversary of Jamiroquai’s first album,“Emergency on Planet Earth,” arrived in the middle of my labor to heal from my past….and it was the loss of what we had that re-emerged as heartbreak and not how terrible it became. Sometimes, it’s an actual war that inspires the war between us and those we love. And some wars, we just don’t win.I mention some videos in this piece and I've added them to the Ghost Post Songs playlist on my YouTube channel here: https://www.youtube.com/@DoctorBeepBoop Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

That What You Wanted Will Never Unfold: My 2 Years With Mari Kattman’s Music

Length: 11:03This is a short one for you guys, but that’s because of a very specific challenge I had with this piece when I was writing it in July of 2025. A lot has changed since then, but the reason the post was shorter has not: I saw Mari Kattman twice in 2023, but would need to write about her twice in 2025 due to one set being hers and the second being Helix’s set at Absolution Fest 2023. Absolution Fest 2023 is going to be season 2. The season is already written and exists here for paid subscribers, as the written posts ended in October 2025. The videos and posts are on the Substack on the Absolution Fest 2023 tab, as long as you can handle the fact that I was writing myself out of trauma and back into being able to focus. It’s a lil sloppy for my taste, but I had to be sloppy before I could imagine returning to anything like what I once had. So, it’s shorter, but you might like an 11-minute casual chat.The song I mention in this piece are “Swallow” and “You Can Show Yourself Out.” I have a Ghost Post Songs playlist on YouTube and Spotify. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

”So Much Better Than Florida”: I Saw Depeche Mode in Orlando and Nashville..Two Very Different Shows

After a joke intro, we have "So Much Better Than Florida: I Saw Depeche Mode in Orlando and Nashville....Two Very Different Shows." This simple comparison of two shows in different cities was the moment when I began to form my thoughts about the differences in music cultures between cities, but it also sparked me to consider what makes specifically Nashville different from other cities with regards to live music. The line "So Much Better Than Florida" is Gahan's, not mine! He meant it, and, frankly, having been at that show in Orlando...I agreed. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

”Some Things Have a Depth We Don’t Need to Measure”: Ella Vos and Blond in Car at Analog at Hutton in Nashville

I saw Blond in Car and Ella Vos at Analog at Hutton in December of 2023, the day before I saw Michael MdDonald do a talk about his book. It turned out that the Ella Vos show spoke to me in a way I wasn't expecting, and I hope to catch a show there again because I really liked that venue.Join me as I ponder about the versions of me: 2023 me, August 2025-me who wrote this and Now-me who is yapping about it. Some things have a depth we don't need to measure.Length 1:08 Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe